The first line in this video had a special meaning to me, because that was how I used to think. I didn't want to be a girl, female, or women as each stage reached my life.
"I never wanted to be a girl, the way a girl supposed to be..." I remember writing this very thought to an older friend, and expressed my wish to be a boy! In return, he wrote: "Just be a girl, natural, and pretty as a girl!"
With that one sentence, he comforted me and helped me to accept my role as a girl. Note, I didn't want to have a sex change, I wanted to born as a boy, not a transsexual figure. A real natural boy!
Why was it that I detested my gender? What was it that being a girl so awful in my thought?
There are many possible reasons, and physically, these are what girls do in my time:
- Clean up the house
- Wash dishes
- Wash the clothes
- Go to the market
- Plant flowers and vegetables
- Feed the animals
- Water the garden
- Take care of a sick member of the family
When I was younger, I saw the boys having so much freedom, and realized the unfairness in this world. Just because they are boys, they didn't have to do a thing! All they do were: sleep, eat, and either study or work! While girls virtually do everything boys do and ten times more!
On the Emotional and Mental Notes, Girls Are:
- Tears easily
- Keep to themselves
- Have less freedom to express
I have lots of respect for women, and I no longer wish to be a boy! Watching this video, I can relate to their feelings. It is hard to be a girl, especially in countries where women have no voice. Through life experiences, I am more comfortable in my own skin.
Why did I ever have that thought? What was I thinking? Was it just a wishful thinking? Have you ever wish to be a different person?